Release date: November 3, 2014
Published by: Lakehouse Press
Save me and I'll save you...
My name is Calla Price. I’m eighteen years old, and I’m one half of a whole. My other half-- my twin brother, my Finn-- is crazy.
I love him. More than life, more than anything. And even though I’m terrified he’ll suck me down with him, no one can save him but me.
I’m doing all I can to stay afloat in a sea of insanity, but I’m drowning more and more each day. So I reach out for a lifeline.
He’s my savior and my anti-Christ. His arms are where I feel safe, where I’m afraid, where I belong, where I’m lost. He will heal me, break me, love me and hate me.
He has the power to destroy me.
Maybe that’s ok. Because I can’t seem to save Finn and love Dare without everyone getting hurt.
Why? Because of a secret.
A secret I’m so busy trying to figure out, that I never see it coming.
You won’t either.
Wow. This book. THIS BOOK! Just...wow! Nocte is a masterpiece of mind fuckery full of secrets, almost-truths, heartache, passion and despair. This is easily one of my favorite books of 2014, if not my number one. Forgive me for not being too specific in this review - I didn't want to ruin one bit of this amazing journey for you.
Nocte is the story of Calla and Finn. Calla and Finn are twins, recovering from the untimely death of their mother. They live with their father, a mortician, on the beautiful yet spooky Oregon coastline. Finn is mentally ill. He hears voices, struggles with his relationship with Calla, and has begun getting sicker. Finn and Calla have grown up with only each other for support and companionship. Their relationship is intense and all consuming. Calla believes that she is the only person that can save Finn from himself.
Adair Dubray is a dark and sexy stranger that Calla meets while accompanying Finn to his group therapy sessions. Adair, or Dare for short, is mysterious and sensual. He takes an immediate liking to Calla, and this becomes the romantic focal point on the story.
Dare and Calla fit together like two pieces to a puzzle. They take their relationship slowly, much to Calla's dismay. Although Dare is 100 percent focused on Calla and her well-being, he is hiding his own secrets. Their relationship is deep and complicated, yet sweet and full of hope. There were so many scenes that left me begging for more of this new mega-couple.
Calla is in a difficult situation. She truly believes that she is the only person that can save Finn, yet she wants to live her own life. She struggles with her feelings and emotions in this book, fighting a heaping amount of guilt. Dare is the first person that has ever given her hope of having her own life. She doesn't resent Finn and the role she plays in his life, but she's suffocating under the pressure of being Finn's lifeline.
I loved all the characters in this book. They are all layered, intense and have a depth of quality you don't often find. The emtions of these characters were raw and painful, as well as light and joyful. Every character seems to be hiding something, yet they are all likeable and genuine. I also love how Cole made the setting its own character. The descriptions of the Oregon coast are lush and beautiful, wavering between green life, and harsh death. I really felt like the setting added so much to this book, from the ocean, to the cliffs to Nocte - the place made the story come alive.
Nocte is superiorly well-written. When I got to the last page, I was shell-shocked. The twist this book takes is unlike anything else I've read. Not only is the twist amazing but it's written in such a compelling way. I urge you to NOT read spoilers about this book. It's way too genius to ruin. I must warn you, though...while one huge and shocking secret is revealed by the end, we are left with an emotional cliff hanger that still has my stomach in knots.
I highly recommend this book to anyone who enjoys a wonderfully written suspense, and to anyone who likes a complicated and emotional love story. This book will stay with me for a very long time. I will be impatiently awaiting Book 2, Verum, due in February 2015. Bravo, Courtney Cole, on a fantastic story!