Sunday, January 20, 2013

Review - Undeniable by Madeline Sheehan

Warning: This is not a typical love story. This is an all-consuming, soul-crushing, tear-your-heart-into-pieces story. It’s intense, gritty and raw, dark and disturbing, and it doesn’t happen overnight. This is an epic love story that knows no boundaries and has no time limits. It grows and develops—with hurt, sacrifice, and heartache—over the span of a lifetime.

Eva Fox is the princess of the Silver Demons Motorcycle Club. Growing up with bikers in the club lifestyle is all that she knows. When she’s a young girl, Eva meets the reason for her existence. Deuce West is the sexy, biker bad-ass of the Hell’s Horsemen Motorcycle Club. Like Eva, he was born and raised in the club—but that’s where the similarities end. Their first meeting is innocent, but as Eva matures into a woman, their chance reunions evolve into a fit of lust and love. Fate continues to bring them together time and time again, but their twisted journey is filled with pain, betrayal, and bloodshed that could tear them apart. Eva sees in Deuce what he cannot see in himself—a man worthy of love—and Eva spends her lifetime proving to him that her undeniable love is the one thing he can’t live without.

This is Eva and Deuce’s story.

It wasn’t easy.
Nothing worth doing ever is.
And love is worth everything.

Release Date: October 6, 2012
Publisher:  Self Published
Pages:  219
Genre:  Contemporary Romance 
Purchase at: Amazon or Barnes & Noble 

****Language not appropriate for the faint of heart****

The road to hell is paved with good intentions, and he'd just bought himself a one-way ticket.

Fuck me!  What a brilliant book!  I never in a million years thought I'd enjoy a dark book about motorcycle gangs and a destructive, emotional, angst-ridden May-December romance, but Madeline Sheehan has proven me wrong.  Sheehan captured me with the dramatic Eva-Deuce relationship and has me begging for  more of this gritty and colorful world she has created.  

If you don't care for expletives, then do not read this book.  This book is raw and the language is harsh.  It's not something that bothered me.  I found the language in this book to paint a full picture of the characters.  Every F-bomb, every reference to a girl's anatomy and every time a woman was called "bitch" was, for me, just an extension of the characters.  

This story begins with a five-year-old Eva meeting a twenty-three-year old Deuce.  They are both visiting their fathers who are in jail.  Eva's and Deuce's fathers are heads of rival motorcycle gangs who occasionally work together.  Eva and Deuce share a nice, innocent moment that begins a long, epic and angsty relationship.  Flash forward seven years:  Deuce and Eva cross paths again, but still in a completely innocent manner. This is where we learn that Eva has a kind of step-brother, a boy her father takes in because his parents are dead.  Frankie is only 15, but is already ten kinds of crazy.  He is obsessed with Eva and this obsession fuels a good portion of this book.  

"If you were older, darlin', I'd have you on the back of my bike and in my fuckin' bed.  And you'd be not just likin' it, but lovin' it, beggin' for more."

The first sexual encounter between Deuce and Eva happens when she is 16-years-old.  At a motorcycle club monthly barbeque, a very drunk Deuce and a willing Eva have an intense make out session.  Deuce knows that what he is doing is wrong, yet he can't get Eva out of his mind.  He pays dearly for this mistake and doesn't see Eva again until she is 18.  When he does meet  up with Eva again, Deuce consummates the relationship.  In an alley.  In the pouring rain.  With Eva who has saved herself for him.  Intense.  Jaw-dropping.  Sizzling.  After this sexual encounter, Eva doesn't see Deuce again until she graduates from college.  All of these brief encounters lead to a love story that spans years and leaves destruction in its path.

By the time Eva graduates from college, she has become an intelligent, strong, stubborn, spoiled and mouthy young woman.  Since she is the princess of the Silver Demons Motorcycle Club, she is used to speaking her mind and hanging with the boys in the clubhouse.  When she travels to meet Deuce in his Montana base, she experiences a rude awakening.  Deuce isn't used to women taking back to him, and he sure as hell isn't used to women defying him.  Oh, and Deuce is married and has two kids on top of it.  However, the connection between Deuce and Eva is stronger than anything else in either of their lives.  It can't be explained or understood.  Deuce and Eva have a falling out, and she leaves him for several years.  And this all happens in the first 40 percent of this book.

"As for what happened in that alleyway, your old man never found out about it.  But even if he had and he buried me, I wouldn't have fuckin' cared 'cause when it comes to you, darlin', I got no fuckin' sense.  You fuckin' pull me in until you're all I can fuckin' see.  Suddenly I can't fuckin' breath, but I don't care 'cause you , babe, you're you."
As the years pass, Deuce and Eva, although both married and living separate lives, cross paths.  Their encounters are always intense, explosive and emotional.  Eva finally married crazy Frankie, as her father wanted, and Deuce remains in a loveless marriage.  There are so many things that happen in this crazy ass ride of a book!  There is betrayal, cheating, heartache, lying, drama and downright evil.  It is a roller coaster ride, and once you think everything is going to work out, Sheehan ups the ante.  

"I'm gettin' old, babe.  Got grown-ass kids and gray fuckin' hair.  Spent too much time married to a bitch I couldn't stand and too much time beatin' myself up for wishin' I was balls deep in a bitch eighteen years younger than me.  Add that shit together and that equals me being fuckin' miserable for a long fuckin' time.  So yeah.  I can't do this anymore.  Can't fuckin' live without you.  Want you on my bike and in my bed."

Deuce is a hard character to like.  He's rough, edgy and difficult.  He talks a good game but makes poor decisions throughout this book.  On one hand, it is obvious that he is in love with Eva to the point of insanity.  On the other hand, when things don't go his way, his coping mechanism is to find comfort in club whores and alcohol.  Despite all of his faults, though, I have it bad for Deuce!  He shows growth throughout the book, and proves himself man enough for Eva.  Eva is a strong willed, sometimes spoiled, oftentimes emotional character.  When things get too hard emotionally, her first instinct is to run.  Eva makes a a few extremely poor decisions, but they aren't decisions that affect Deuce directly. She is also flawed, but finds her way by the end of the story.

"And baby, true freedom is the open road, the wind on your face, and a good woman on the back of your bike, holdin' you tight like you're her reaseon for breathin' because she sure as fuck is yours."

I love, love, love Deuce's teenage son, Cage.  There is a scene where Cage lays the smack down on his father.  Deuce, being an idiot, is so far gone that he needs his own son to point out his shortcomings.  It was excellent and I am so happy that we will get a book about Cage in the future.  I also really enjoyed Deuce's teenage daughter, Danny, and look forward to reading more about her.

I had a few small issues with this book, which is why I knocked half a star off.  One being the Eva-Frankie relationship.  I never quite understood why Eva was so overly protective of him.  Sure, he was bat shit crazy,  but for an intelligent girl to feel this attached to someone who treated her this poorly was confusing to understand.  Frankie was clingy and possessive and violated Eva in such a despicable way.  It wasn't clear to me why she put up with his behavior when she could have done something about it.  Eva is a strong woman so why just sit back and take it?   

Another piece of the story that I would have liked more insight on was Eva's father, Preacher.  Preacher was extremely overprotective of his daughter the entire time she was growing up.  Frankie wasn't able to hide his crazy, so why would Preacher be okay with his daughter marrying him?  There is a great moment in this book where Preacher talks about Eva's mother, and I only wish we would have seen more of him throughout this book. 

Madeline Sheehan took me on a dark, raw and spectacular journey through the world of Deuce and Eva.  The memorable characters will make you beg for more of this story.  I was surprised by this book and if you enjoy books on the darker side, you will love this one, too.

"So you promise me. no matter what you see, no matter what sort of fucked up shit happens to you.  Don't let this life turn you bitter."


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